Sigh

My DSL seems REAL slow now and has been sluggish ever since my poor ol’ linux box crashed. If you were lookin’ for this site between last afternoon and last night, you were subjected to a nice error message. It turns out that my servers went through some power failures so I had to drive down to my old place yesterday (yes, these servers are at my old house) and bring them each back up to their full glory. 🙂 Luckily Windows 2000 can take a few power failures or five but alas Linux just up and shits on itself in that case. I spent a few hours rebuilding the partitions and everything came up nicey nice, except for a problem with my e-mail there so don’t expect any responses anytime soon. 🙁 If this site seems slow, it’s because the DSL circuit is being moved so it’s acting sluggish… I a-pol-o-gize. :/

So it’s been a while since I last posted, but everything is going well, just busy as a bee. This weekend was a bit uneventful I think. I forgot most of it. I was supposed to go to a 21st birthday party for a new on-line friend, Kristina, but a lot of crappy ass stuff happened to me Friday night. I didn’t get back till about Sunday so that pretty much screwed my weekend. However I managed to update a lot more of my bio information for those of you who care. I also added a site section for those who are interested in how this site works and also some advice from me about the field of web development as opposed to web designing.

All I am psyched for now is mom’s turkey and then hanging out with Karen this coming Friday in New York City. It seems there’s a version of the Rocky Horror Picture Show playing on (or off, not sure) Broadway and she got a couple of tickets for it. Thus, I am joining her in Friday night’s freaky festivities if all goes well! Then afterwards I’m taking her out so that we can get sloppy drunk in NYC and catch some of the sites and restaurants around the theatre district. 🙂 I am way way way way psyched for that, it always rocks hanging out with Karen. Also I’m hanging out with my old roomie Shell next week! Been such a long time since I have seen that hottie, woo hoo! We’re probably having dinner and gossiping like the little chismosos that we are… 😉 Also if all goes well, I’ll be again living with her in the same house. Turns out she lives with a friend on the second floor of this place and if the people downstairs move out, they’ll take that spot leaving a nice 2 bedroom apartment ripe for the taking. It shall be mine! Well, I hope so. Who knows what will happen between now and next year?

Found this place last week. This is what it gave me, some truth to it but mostly BS. Apparently it has worked better for others:

At this particular time, you are feeling that you are/or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams…..You feel that everything is against you…But look on the bright side…for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor….

Being a likable person… You get in well with neighbours and friends. You don’t need anything to “rock your boat.” You want to “love” and to be “loved.”

You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realize that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you .. that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you – they simply flow off you as water flows of a ducks back… You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact – deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can “let your hair down” and share your hopes, dreams and high standards… You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray… and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfillment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have result in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer… You have the power to succeed. Believe in yourself… All is possible to him who believes…

Bear